During this time of crisis we all need someone. Someone to talk to. Someone to lean on. Someone to offer support and love. What do you do when you don't have that? Everyday that passes I feel more and more alone even though I have my husband here.
He's only here in body however. He's not a support system. He's not someone I can talk to. He's in charge and it's his way. I don't do anything right in his eyes. His job is more important. Any issue that comes up he faces with anger and hatred. And that is if he is around.
Normally he is down in his office working, playing video games or drinking. I'm so tired of the video games and drinking. Is computer is more important than his children. Definitely more important than me. He doesn't understand that I am on the verge of a breakdown right now. I'm trying to hold it all together but it is just by a hair.
This situation is wearing so heavy on me as it is with many. He has his escapes. I do not. And then on top of that, I don't even have his support. I am so thankful that I have my children that but that is not a burden for them to endure. But they are the only reason I smile right now.
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